Hating myself

Right now, I'm really pissed about myself.

And I only see that pain is one of the ways I'll get enough hate against myself. At least my current self, the one I hate the most. I can't stand me. And with this hate, I will change, and change for good.

And so, I want you to, the next time you see me, punch me. Just once, whenever you want.
That's all about it.

I want to leave this stupid me behind, and if you don't do it, well, everyone can be in pain if they want (if you know how to, and don't being a moron, of course).

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am...



But right now, I'm not even sure who I am.
I've failed in being anything in my life.
As a student.
Son.
Brother.
Human being.

[I just want that feeling away, and, now more than ever, need support. But don't push it if I tell you to stop. I have to domain myself.]